Assorted things

Well,at the end of the week i have to say,that aside from a few ups and downs on an emotional level,things haven't been to bad for me. I've started some new training at work,and that's been a little confusing,but on the whole it's been ok. This entire last month has been full of sobering experiences for me. All my brothers,my closest family,are moved or moving away. And also I have a few good friends who will be moving away soon for school; some already have.
Other assorted sobering instances varied throughout my life as this last week wore on, some of them at work,some at home,a couple were in my car driving home one night. They were peppered throughout in very colorful/dangerous ways. But i made it through all in one piece,and I'm the wiser for it. It just makes me wonder what next week will be like...hmmm.....yea,maybe i shouldn't think about it,and just let come on it's own time.

On another side of my rich and strange life,I've been thinking about going back to church. It's been a while since I've gone,because it seems like every year we move again. so i just did all of my religious study at home with my family. But I've lived here for almost three years now and it doesn't seem like I'll be moving any time soon,so I'm considering the possibility that I'll go back. I can't give any promises though. =]
Another thing that's got me really wondering is my car. Now,anyone who knows me,also knows what my car means to me. So with that in mind,obviously it would scare me when i go to change his oil and i can't find the proper oil filter replacement. i was really freaking out,but in the end i just had to put new oil in and leave the old filter on. Oh-well,better luck finding the right one next time.

And one more thing I've gotta tell about is when my siblings and I took a sharpie and wrote all over the back wall of a coffee shop. We were having the time of our lives,just sitting there sipping the best coffee in the world,talking and laughing with each other. it was the best time I've had in a long time. And here are the lyrics to the song that was playing on the radio while it all happened

Everything Changes Lyrics

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal.

[Chorus:]
But everything changes
If I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel,
Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real.

[Chorus]
When it's just me and you.
Who knows what we could do.
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day.

[Chorus]
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word.
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?.
It wouldn't change how you feel.

God bless,with all my love
~Swan