These are surely not the best colors that you shine...

So things have been going a little rough for me lately, and for a while I was drowning in my own hopelessness, until I sat down and realized that I had to talk to someone about what was going wrong. I thought about it for a while and finally concluded that I should call my big brother, and ask him for some much needed wisdom. We talked long into the night about all kinds of things, mostly I had a lot of questions to ask him about what to do with some situations I've found myself in lately. But after he had listened to everything I had to say, he paused for a moment and finally said: "Little Sister, I know that in the end, you'll make the right decision"...
It gave me a lot of heart to hear him say that, particularly after these last few months. I had lost a lot of faith in myself, and I guess I just needed someone to tell me that they believed in me even if I didn't. So I have resolved to start anew, and I hope that this time I will be able to hold on to my new-found confidence. It seems as though every time I think I'll start over and begin again, something terrible goes wrong. But maybe this one last time will be the charm I need. And even if I do fall down again, I know that I'll always have my bothers right there beside me to help me on my feet again. Someone once told me that siblings were man's greatest Ally. I'm beginning to understand why exactly that is. I never understood what that meant until I started having trouble with the world, and guess who was there for me at the first calling....?
I know now that no one will ever love me like my siblings, no one will ever be closer to me, or have my best interests at heart like they do. Now all that's left is for me to shine
some new colors... = )

Peace and love to you with all my heart.
~Swan