Well the days are getting colder, but my life just keeps getting warmer! Chester is having a Fish-Tailing good time in the snow, and I'm simply living the dream. Strangely enough, I feel a sense of contentment around me that I have not felt in many long months of restless living. Everything has been going so fast for me lately that I lost track of myself and forgot to stop and take a nice long look around. And it startled me, the things I saw, when I did take a moment to look at myself and all the things around me that have happened. It struck me that I had forgotten my intended purpose and exactly what it was that I had been living for in the first place. But alas, after drinking several gallons of green tea, a few hundred man-hours of meditation, and a good sobering kick in the rump from my sister, I've come to realize all the wonderful things that I've been missing of late. So yesterday when I woke, I was determined to live that day to it's fullest!!!....the only problem being, I started it off with a little too much energy and enthusiasm, lol! People were so startled by my sudden change of mood that they thought I was high on something. *grins*... But, paying no mind to the strange glances, I went out with my mom and got a Christmas tree (finally), and laughed the whole way to the store. And of course everyone thought I was a maniac! But ya know? It's ok, cuz that was fun-time with my mom that was absolutely priceless. When we got home with the tree though, I soon found out that my sister wasn't home to help me with it, and that the tree stand was outside all dirty. Well, I wasn't about to let THAT rain on my ever so happy-gothic parade! So to fill the time, I went out and cleaned the stand, then went grocery shopping with my brother. And when we got home, so was she. My sister and I decorated and ate doughnuts until we were so full and content that we couldn't stay awake any longer. So we sat in the dark and watched the tree sparkle for a little while and then finally wandered off to bed, in a daze of musky happiness. But before falling asleep last night, I smiled like I have never smiled before. These were the things that I used to live for! And I don't think I ever really lost them, I think they just faded out of the main picture for a little while. But whatever happened, they've floated back to the surface, and I'm really starting to feel the effects of it, lol! But just as a footnote, a certain person is thinking about taking this opportunity to ask me to give up my heavy metal music, but they are truly wasting their valuable time, lol. Just because I'm happy, doesn't mean my tastes have changed any. I'm sorry to disappoint, dear friend, but not this time. You know who you are...
And with one last note to the party people: stay warm, stay happy, live free, and never forget what you live for and what you represent...
With all my love
~Swan
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Lol! Does this certain person read your blog and leave you thoughtful comments? *grins* Sorry to disappoint you (if I'm right), but I'm not going to ask you to stop listening to metal. If I'm not that certain person, be sure to tell them that music is life and the purest expression of the soul. *nod emphatically*
Well I'm glad to hear that you're finally grabbing life by the horns! Hey, I think you could really live life to it's fullest by going to see I Am Legend this weekend. *grins wildly* I think Sam mentioned something about it to you already. Leave me a comment or something, lol.
~Curtis~
Sorry, lol, but you're not the certain person. This person is someone that I've known for as long as I can remember, and has been a guardian and mentor to me for a long time.
But yea, Sam did mention that to me. He said that he wanted to go on friday because I'm off work that day, but I'm not sure I want to go...
YAYAYAYAYAY!! I get to hang out with one of my favorite families! This brings me endless joy and happiness, Tori! I can hardly wait for the movie tomorrow. We need to go somewhere afterwards and chill out!
Btw, did I tell you about the time when I made an effigy of my Spanish teacher and then burned it? It was delightful. Something inside of me got all warm and fuzzy, watching the flames devour the hapless thing. All my other teachers were nice to me and promised that they wouldn't give me h/w over break... except guess who... my friendly, neighborhood Spanish teacher! Gaaa... I know who the first person is I wanna kill if I ever get drafted... *grits teeth and scrunches up eyebrows*
...woah... that was a dark thought... sweet!
Later, Mater!
~Curtis~
PS. I watched Constantine last night. That movie was flippin' amazin'! Have you ever seen Saw III? Now there's a grizzly and gory movie for ya. I loved it because there was actually a plot to it. If you feel like you need to see more mutilated bodies than you thought you could ever handle, watch Saw III, lol. Delightful, just delightful. *grins darkly and laughs maniacally*
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